Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Random Thoughts

Never underestimate your potential and never be ashamed of what you are. Do your best especially when people expect you to do less because the greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.

Life never gets tough if one can handle it better. Cries won’t be tears if you’re not hurt. Sadness won’t mean anything unless you’re down. Anger will be nothing if apology comes right after. Smiles mean nothing if it comes from the unknown. A touch never says it cares unless you think so. There are a lot of things in life that have a different meaning of its own…

… So if you feel like having a dwell in life… Fight not because you’re brave but because you’re a coward who is out to prove something.

Blindfolded and walking alone. That’s what most of us feel in a lifetime full of major risks and decisions. It might seem safer to remain stagnant. But isn’t it more fulfilling if despite the fear of falling from a cliff and bruised knees, steps were taken? In the end, losing and mistake won’t count. What matters most is the person we turned out to be—not na├»ve but wise and beautifully molded by experiences.

I’ve learned… that when you plan to get even with someone, you’re only letting that person continue to hurt you.
I’ve learned… that ignoring the facts do not change the facts.
I’ve learned… that the easiest way to grow as a person is to surround yourself with people smarter than you are.
I’ve learned… that no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.
And I’ve learned… that life is tough, but I can be tougher!!!

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

Yet another trip and I'm hitting the road.

Yet another week and I'm again hitting the road, and here I am at the island which has loads of good food, good air, and terrible traffic >.< I was suppose to leave at 7am this morning, however my colleague came late so we took off a little later, well an hour later to be exact. I was so tired to drive as I have kinda had a long hour drive the day before arriving at KL at night. So this morning I took it kinda slow, cruising at 130-140km/h. Took me about 4 hours on the dot upon arriving to Penang and another 30 mins to find my way to Naza Hotel.

Upon arriving, we quickly settled our baggage and checked in to our room. Met the IT guy here for lunch at their coffee house and then off to work. Trust me the food here, SUCKS! I've never tasted such bad food in Penang before. This has gotta be the worst! I didn't really have a choice since we're really hungry, we just took a quick bite then we went to do our work in which we are suppose to do here.

Finished our task and we went off to another hotel, Berjaya hotel...
Did some stuff there and meeting some people there and the hotel manager. Sort that out and we're off downstairs to midland plaza to grab some DVDs hahaha it's really up for grabs and the price is really cheap! :p

We had dinner then at the other end of the island. Wanted to have chinese hawker food but according to our dumb law in the company, we need to have dinner in which there's a receipt so we can claim for our meal. =.=" so we ended up at Kayu Nasi Kandar haha. one of the places in which I could think of with receipt included :p

Now I'm here sitting back at the hotel room, resting while waiting for my colleague to be done with shower so I can get one myself.

Ok he's done...I think. Gotta go. ciao~

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

Why oh why?!

I've always wondered why sometimes things doesn't come to you when you are looking for it; however, when you decided to stop looking, these things will tend to creep up to you.

Example: I've been jobless for a while. I mean some of you guys knows some don't so well now you know. I won't really wanna talk about how did I get myself into this situation but let's just say I have my own reasons in doing so. Foolish it may seem to some of you but hey all I'm asking is just an open mind and let me be, me. :)

For more and a month to almost two, I've been left without a job. Yes I did go on several interviews however, it wasn't really successful. Not many companies were hiring at that time and even some of the ones that are hiring, can't afford to pay me >.<

After about 2 months of struggling, I finally got a job. This time around it's a job with a huge company, I shall not reveal just yet so I won't bloody jinx my term here. At least until confirmation is assured. I do have better pay; yes very much better than the previous job and hehe I can finally wear the pants in the house....well no one to compare with but hey I'm happy enough.

Job's a little challenging and yes I do have to travel quite frequent. Tioman last week, Singapore this week, Penang next week, and probably Redang and Langkawi for this year. Next year However we are planning on Phu Quoc, Vietnam, Seychelles and London for the first quarters. I do love to travel. Of course it's never nice to travel on your own expenses but with the companies? Hell, I'm game. :p

I got myself a little comfortable with the job here then there it comes.... another offer came up to me...then another, and today, another =.="

Job 1: I'll be a contract staff for 1 year tenure at a huge MNC company. As a project manager of course leading a team and dealing with infrastructure and network related projects for this customer. Pay? Well almost double my current pay. They are going to pay me 3 months in advance for a whole year. My dilemma? When the contract ends then what? Will my contract be renewed or will I be back at square 1; job hunting again?? If so, which company will hire me with this sort of pay? Will I be contented with new jobs if I were to get lower pay, nearly half from what I'm getting? Setback, no traveling =.=" Boo Fuckin Hoo!!

Job 2: I will be hired as a sales force to find revenues in terms of sales for this company. Pay will be slightly higher than what I'm getting now of course. However, the advantage is that I get to travel around Asia Pacific....50% of my time :p Now I will be lying if I'm telling you that I'm not drooling with the offer. However, the disadvantage is that I do not have sales experiences. however the interviewer said that he can see me as a very effective sales person >.< I keep hearing people say that. How can people be so confident in me doing sales when I can't even be confident enough to see myself through?

Job 3: Now today's another offer, They wanna hire a project manager, based in Taiwan... I get to travel... yes... I get to see those hot Taiwanese chicks... yes... However, did you guys watch the youtube video on those Taiwan chicks without their heavy make up? Gosh I won't wanna be in that position!! Another setback is that I can't bloody read chinese and speaking them? well let's just say that I will tend to make people laugh and she once said my mandirin sounds cute =.="

So now what the hell am I gonna do? I need to give an answer as soon as possible. I can see myself excel and have opportunities to grow or climb the corporate ladder in this current company that I'm with. Should I be greedy and go for the money now and end up in square 1? or should I opt to work overseas to experience life in a greater manner?

Another headache is that for the past couple of months, I have repeatedly scratching my head so much just to think on how to reject people and decline a relationship. hahaha... well at least now It's been better, I got no more unwanted requests and I'm contented with what I already have.

Sigh... Dilemma dilemma.... I kinda know which path I should take already. I mean I'm finally settling down emotionally and mentally. I don't really want to struggle anymore after what I've been through for the past few months.

I mean yes I've gotten happier in ways. However, there's still a black smudge lingering in me of the past experience I've been having. At least now I do finally realize that I have friends who still cares for me, people who will be there for me during the time of needs. At first I thought when I turned single, I'm gonna be there facing it alone which had happened to me before. It's a torment and it's never a good memory.

At least now I do have someone who would be there for me, well, most of the time to cheer me up and to share some life stories lol. Someone there to give you a hug when you need one, someone to let you lean on them when you are tired and frail, someone to put a smile right back to your face, someone to make you laugh at the silly things that are being said or done. At least i have people now who are not critical to me, who accepts me just the way I am...someone who does not judge me just because of some decisions I've made.

It's been a real experience for me to find myself again. Who I really am, What I really am....

Guess I should stop for now...it's getting a little long and a little too personal :p